A Letter to Bella: 22 Things I Want You to Know About Dating After Betrayal
By Rae Gaelyn Emerson, CPLC, CCRC, CDRC, MCC, CMC, CPC-S
Dear Bella,
First things first: congratulations for getting yourself to this exquisitely empowering moment! After everything you’ve been through, from discoveries to divorce, nobody would blame you for giving up on relationships altogether. I honor the fact that your heart remains open in this area, bravely inching back toward the intimate world of romantic connection. By taking this tender and tentative step, you’re reclaiming a capacity you once thought was gone forever: your ability to cultivate love for another person while maintaining your commitment to prioritizing love for yourself.
So before you download that dating app, can we pause just a minute? Can we take a deep breath and have a little chat? Because here’s the thing: this journey to date after betrayal and divorce will ultimately bring you immeasurable joy—but it will also bring you countless challenges, moments of heartache, and confusing crossroads.
While I can’t offer you a way to bypass the tough stuff altogether, I can offer you some meaningful insights (in no particular order) from my unique vantage point—speaking as your best and proudest future self. Take them in and soak them up. Carry them close to your warrior soul, and pull them out often for ongoing reference. Channel this swift and ready call to action, spoken in the words of our beloved writer Lin Manuel Miranda: “Eyes up. Hearts up. Minds sharp. Compassion on full blast. Sips coffee. Okay. Let’s go.”
#1: This journey will take you into wildly uncharted territory. Dating after betrayal is a landscape riddled with awkward contradictions, invisible landmines, and mixed messages. It’s gonna feel curious, confusing, uneasy, exciting, intriguing, satisfying, and overwhelming—sometimes all at once. To avoid getting lost and disoriented, you’ll need to stay anchored to your own authenticity. If you remember who you are, you won’t lose yourself in the whirlwind.
#2: You WILL experience waves of traumatic recall. And why wouldn’t you? By dating again, you’re returning to the proverbial birthplace of your very own love life, revisiting the origin points of your emotional, relational, and sexual history. You’re about to open Pandora’s box yet again, so parts of you are about to become wildly activated, in all the most thrilling and terrifying ways. When these reminiscent responses arise, it doesn’t mean you’re doing it wrong OR that something’s wrong with you. It simply means you are officially a survivor—and survivorship involves involuntary moments of recollection and retrospection. Those moments will pass; in the meantime, do not let them disempower you.
#3: Along the way, you’ll wonder if your self-love is big enough to survive this new chapter. You’ll wonder if your self-love is deep enough to accommodate this new risk. You’ll wonder if your self-love is focused enough to prevent you from lowering your beautiful standards. Spoiler alert: the answer to all three questions is yes.
#4: You’ll worry that others will reject or abandon you. They will. You’ll worry that rejection and abandonment will destroy you. They won’t.
#5: As you date, you’ll discover something simultaneously surprising and predictable: your needs won’t always match those of your dating partners. Your history and sensitivities will be different from theirs—especially if they’ve never experienced the same kind of relational trauma. You’ll often feel like the needy one in your dating relationships, seeking higher levels of information, verification, and reassurance. Both of you will need to become okay with that. Your needs make sense in the context of your personal history, so don’t let anyone patronize or pathologize your survivorship needs.
#6: Dating will involve making choices—like, a LOT of them. The struggles of “analysis paralysis” are real, and decision fatigue is profoundly exhausting. You won’t always be able to make decisions quickly, especially under pressure or on demand. The choices that matter most are worth taking your time to decide. If in doubt, slow things down. Give yourself the chance to sit with decisions before enacting them. Learn this sentence, and use it often: “I don’t know yet, but I’ll let you know when I do.”
#7: When it comes to making decisions, your head, heart, and gut will often feel out of sync—simply because they’ve each got a very different job to do. Each provides meaningful relational intelligence, interpreting data through its own set of criteria. Duly collect ALL of this information, without prematurely dismissing its source. Wisely grant an audience to all three voices, then choose one to break the inevitable tie. Surprise, surprise: more often than not, your bravely healing heart will become the front-running tiebreaker. Who knew?
#8: As you prioritize your own wellbeing while dating (and yes, that’s exactly what you must do), you’ll inevitably end up hurting a few good men. This will be incredibly hard for you, and you’ll cry buckets of tears when coming to terms with it. You’ll eventually discern the crucial distinction between causing hurt and perpetrating harm, and your conscience will ultimately find its resting place within this equation. You’ll hold the hearts of your dating partners with care and respect, but you won’t sacrifice your own wellbeing to prevent hurting someone you love.
#9: As you date, you’ll have opportunities to choose your own happiness. When you get those chances, please take them. You’ve spent the bulk of your life focused on the happiness of others, so you’ve got some catching up to do. Happiness matters, and YOUR happiness matters. So please, let yourself be exquisitely happy—without apology.
#10: At some point, you’ll find yourself exploring a relationship that looks great on paper, but leaves you feeling profoundly lonely. Your head is gonna say, “This should work.” Your heart is gonna say, “I want this to work.” Your gut is gonna say, “You can’t force it to work.” Trust your gut on this one, and honor the “felt sense” data you’re receiving.
#11: You are worth protecting. Especially while dating, it’s okay to put your own wellbeing first, with zero excuse or explanation needed. Your self-supporting choices won’t make sense to everyone, and that’s by design; your needs are not for others to challenge or debate. If in doubt, it’s okay to take a beat and continue at a more cautious pace. By honoring the legitimacy of your hesitation today, you’ll get further chances to make bolder choices tomorrow. When the time is right to let yourself relax into the moment, you’ll feel it in your bones, and you’ll finally take that leap. That moment is worth waiting for. That moment is pure magic.
#12: I need you to remember that nobody is entitled to you—not to ANY part of you. Especially in the early stages, you don’t owe anybody anything: not a compliment, not a compromise, and certainly not a second date. You’ll find yourself sharing openly but cautiously, without disclosing details that violate your privacy. More than once, you’ll be accused of hiding, deception, and double standards—and you’ll lose a bit of sleep over that one, wondering if it’s actually legitimate. Thankfully, you’ll conclude in your own favor. Bonus: you’ll learn incredibly quickly who respects your boundaries and who doesn’t.
#13: Speaking of boundaries, have I mentioned yet that “no” ALWAYS means no? This applies to the little things like, “No, I won’t share my phone number yet,” and “No, I’m going to buy my own dinner.” Here again, you’ll get a lot of pushback from dating partners who insist they know better. This is ultimately crucial information; it will save you precious time, energy, and emotional investment.
#14: Dating will be a constant dance of balancing self-protection and risk tolerance. At first, that polarity will feel annoying. Later, that juxtaposition will feel empowering. You’ll get very good at toggling between safety and bravery, responding like a boss to the needs of any given situation.
#15: If there’s one thing you’re really good at, it’s trying (too hard) to be a perfect dating partner. The reasons are many, but the benefits are few. You’ll explore different methods for assessing the quality of each dating relationship, and you’ll increase your focus on what your partner is (or isn’t) providing for you—and whether or not that provision meets your needs effectively.
#16: At one critical juncture, you’ll need to head back to therapy. That doesn’t indicate that you’re not ready for a new relationship; on the contrary, it demonstrates that you actually ARE. You’ll know there’s a lot at stake as your relationship choices become increasingly serious, and you’ll be tempted to panic beneath the weight of those big decisions. You’ll learn to talk yourself down from the panic, and you’ll stop believing the first thing you think, feel, or presume that panic to mean.
#17: It won’t be easy to differentiate between “this feels different,” and “this feels wrong”—or, for that matter, the difference between “this feels good,” and “this feels right.” Let’s face it: it’s been a hot minute since you last encountered the embodied experiences of attraction, flirtation, intimacy, and romantic connection; with that in mind, it makes sense that your central nervous system will struggle to discern between what feels scary and what feels dangerous. Ready for the bad news? Your responses are complex because YOU are complex—this is the less glamorous side of living a life where your insides match your outsides. Ready for the good news? Even though this feels harder than it used to, you’re actually much better at navigating it. When these factors get hard to decipher, please be patient with yourself in the process; you won’t get your answers immediately, but you will get them eventually. Those answers will reinforce your inner peace, not your inner panic.
#18: Speaking of panic, here’s something to keep in mind: you’ll need to tweak the settings on your internal emergency alert system. Right now, it’s set for maximum threat detection, programmed to read every risk factor as imminent danger—just as you’ve historically needed it to do. Its sensitivity level has never been higher, suggesting that every flicker is a five-alarm fire. Please don’t try to override this system altogether; it’s there for a reason, and that reason matters. Instead, take that red-hot data into cool-blue consideration, always within context and with curiosity. If you respond with contemplation instead of conclusion, it will begin making sense. I promise.
#19: Your trauma responses remain your responsibility. Your dating partners can participate in addressing the trauma when it comes up, but it’s not their job to eradicate or resolve that pain. Managing your trauma is your own work to do—and your partner can play a meaningful role in making that job easier or harder.
#20: Please don’t try to do this alone. Yes, you know a lot of things about life, love, and intimate relationships, and I know that you’re an avowedly internal processor. But this experience is going to challenge ALL of the hard-won wisdom you’ve got within you, and your best thinking alone won’t be enough. You won’t need a whole army of insightful voices to offer their advice or opinions, but you will need a small, safe circle of confidants to use as a sounding board. Choose them carefully, then lean in and trust them. They WILL show up for you.
#21: Opening your heart to brave new love means healing in a sophisticated and sensitive manner—it’s not a groovy wave you catch once then ride straight into the sunset. You’ll need to slow down, take breaks, acclimate, and recalibrate. From time to time, you’ll need to reevaluate, change course, and then regain your momentum. This rhythm will work wonders for you—but only if you let yourself trust it.
#22: As you date, you’ll encounter moments when what you once wanted no longer appeals to you. This doesn’t make you fickle, shallow, or indecisive; it makes you a woman who’s willing to change her mind when something isn’t working. It will take a while for you to see this as a superpower, but when you do, you’ll never look back. One of your favorite quotes is applicable on this point: “A woman never steps into the same river twice—for it is not the same river, and she is not the same woman” (source unknown).
So there you have it, precious Bella: twenty-two random glimpses into your own dating-related wisdom. I look forward to the day when you see all this (and more) with deepening measures of evidence and hindsight. Next time we chat, I promise I’ll let you do the talking; I truly can’t wait to hear how it goes.
With soulful anticipation,
Your Best and Proudest Future Self
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Originally written for Turning to Peace Magazine, published by Ellia Marcum of Moodwell Coaching